This has nothing to do with horses, but it does involve one of my pets.... my cat- Pengin. One afternoon a robin was taunting her through the window. This is after about an hour of just sitting and watching when she decided she couldn't take it anymore and had to at least try to get at it, the robin is unphased.
To be fair, she is actually a decent hunter, better than I would like. She has recently figured out the doggie door and likes to bring us mice (sometimes still very alive) at 2 am.
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July 11, 2011
March 22, 2011
Change of Rein
So I've been putting off writing this blog for some time now. I wasn't sure f I was ready to share with the blog-o-sphere yet, or anyone for that matter. But as it is increasingly effecting my riding and plans, and its bound to come up some time, I've decided to go ahead and break the news.
Back in January I found out I was pregnant with our first child. And to be honest one of my first thoughts was to take out this season's show schedule and see how many shows I could fit in before I got to big. Can I get enough to qualify for year end awards? Can I even qualify for Championships? Will the baby be born in time for me to show at the Championships? I know... pretty skewed priorities. But getting Dexter trained and ready for this show season has consumed me for the last year, I'm supposed to throw that all out the window in one day?
And while I'm really trying to be excited about this new addition, I'm having difficulty. I've always been selfish, I'll admit that. And that is primarily why kids haven't been on my to do list. When people would ask me when I was planning on having kids I just said "I don't know." And what I was thinking was "Hadn't thought about it, and what do you mean when? " So whenever I was forced to think about it all I could think of was how my life would change, and what I wouldn't be able to do anymore. Would I have to sell Dexter? If I didn't would I have to spend less time with him? Would that be fair? If I didn't spend less time with Dexter would that mean I would be neglecting my child or husband??
But my wonderful husband has always wanted them and I started to worry that if I got older and changed my mind it would be too late so we stopped trying to not have them and gave into fate. Fate took a quick 2 months to decide, so here we are. As far as where I am in my life, its perfect timing. We both have decent jobs with no noise of lay offs or any of the other issues many people are facing these days. We make a decent living and have plenty of room for the little nugget. We aren't too old or too young. So everything is perfect on paper, now if I can just convince my heart and head of that.
Everyone says once it comes you'll feel different. I certainly hope so. My only solace right now is that I am, at heart, a perfectionist and an over-achiever, so anything I do in life I try to do to the best of my ability. So I imagine this will kick in when the child comes and I will do everything in my power to make sure it grows up to be a healthy and happy adult.
I know this is off topic and not a particularly popular view on motherhood but I try to be honest. And believe me, I want to have the motherly instincts and be like everyone else my age who is cooing over their new belly or baby. I know several of you out there are parents and please don't take my opinions as disrespect or that I think kids aren't great. I'm know they are, I know they are an amazing, wonderful addition to most people's lives. I just hope I'm one of those people.
Well I seem to be repeating myself . I just wanted to share the news so you all understand why I'm starting schooling shows so early and trying to fit at least 1 or 2 in every month. The debate on when/if to quite riding is still going on and that will be a whole separate blog.
Back in January I found out I was pregnant with our first child. And to be honest one of my first thoughts was to take out this season's show schedule and see how many shows I could fit in before I got to big. Can I get enough to qualify for year end awards? Can I even qualify for Championships? Will the baby be born in time for me to show at the Championships? I know... pretty skewed priorities. But getting Dexter trained and ready for this show season has consumed me for the last year, I'm supposed to throw that all out the window in one day?
And while I'm really trying to be excited about this new addition, I'm having difficulty. I've always been selfish, I'll admit that. And that is primarily why kids haven't been on my to do list. When people would ask me when I was planning on having kids I just said "I don't know." And what I was thinking was "Hadn't thought about it, and what do you mean when? " So whenever I was forced to think about it all I could think of was how my life would change, and what I wouldn't be able to do anymore. Would I have to sell Dexter? If I didn't would I have to spend less time with him? Would that be fair? If I didn't spend less time with Dexter would that mean I would be neglecting my child or husband??
But my wonderful husband has always wanted them and I started to worry that if I got older and changed my mind it would be too late so we stopped trying to not have them and gave into fate. Fate took a quick 2 months to decide, so here we are. As far as where I am in my life, its perfect timing. We both have decent jobs with no noise of lay offs or any of the other issues many people are facing these days. We make a decent living and have plenty of room for the little nugget. We aren't too old or too young. So everything is perfect on paper, now if I can just convince my heart and head of that.
Everyone says once it comes you'll feel different. I certainly hope so. My only solace right now is that I am, at heart, a perfectionist and an over-achiever, so anything I do in life I try to do to the best of my ability. So I imagine this will kick in when the child comes and I will do everything in my power to make sure it grows up to be a healthy and happy adult.
I know this is off topic and not a particularly popular view on motherhood but I try to be honest. And believe me, I want to have the motherly instincts and be like everyone else my age who is cooing over their new belly or baby. I know several of you out there are parents and please don't take my opinions as disrespect or that I think kids aren't great. I'm know they are, I know they are an amazing, wonderful addition to most people's lives. I just hope I'm one of those people.
Well I seem to be repeating myself . I just wanted to share the news so you all understand why I'm starting schooling shows so early and trying to fit at least 1 or 2 in every month. The debate on when/if to quite riding is still going on and that will be a whole separate blog.
January 18, 2011
Thanks!
Thanks to Riding from the Ground Up and Nina's Story for nominating me for the Stylish Blog Award. Not really sure what it is, but it's still nice to be recognized as a blog that is actually read.
So the Rules:
1. Thank and link back to the person who awarded you this award
2. Share 7 things about yourself
3. Award 15 recently discovered great bloggers
4. Contact these bloggers and tell them about the award!
1. Check and Done!
Seven Things about Myself:
1. I started this blog as a way to vent/share my horsey thoughts and stories without boring my husband to death. He is very supportive but can only fen interest for so long. I find if I keep things in I forget them but if I write them down and am forced to explain myself I remember and understand better. So I started this blog to un-load my brain and never, ever thought anyone would read this.
2. For 6 years of my life right out of College I made beer for a living. I worked for Anhueser-Busch as a Production Supervisor and made beer. Part of the job was "tasting" every tank before I released it to be packaged. The dream job in theory, and truly it was a lot of fun. But after 6 years of working shift, even the free beer couldn't make me stay.
3. Back in 1996 & 1997 I won the Jr/Yr Region 5 Championship Award, 2 years in a row for Training and 1st Level. I'm not bragging, just sharing as it was the peak (and still is, sadly) of my riding career. Right or wrong, those wins solidified my lifelong passion for Dressage. It showed that I was actually good at something. And that I could be successful at it with an unknown trainer and a little QH, I didn't have to drain myself or my parents of money to succeed, even if on the smallest level.
4. I am almost 31 and my favorite item on the McDonald's menu is still Chicken McNuggets. I know they are gross and over processed, but with that sweet and sour sauce they are soooo good. Go ahead and judge, I don't care.
5. I am a Floridian by birth, but a Coloradan by heart. We visited Colorado when I was ~14 and have dreamed of living here ever since. And have finally gotten my dream... modified. While I live in the high plains, and it resembles Kansas more than Colorado, on a clear day I can see the mountains from the barn.
6. I hate cleaning, it is the most soul sucking activity I can think of. But I'm also a slight perfectionist so I am constantly struggling with the need for a clean house but the absolute dread of cleaning it. Plus I'm lazy, so I often throw clothes where ever and put of doing dishes, knowing its going to drive me crazy the next day. Its quite a paradox.
7. I learned Dressage on a Reining horse, and couldn't get him to walk straight for the first 4 lessons. He had some dressage training, but was primarily a reiner (and my trainer let me do some slides on him for fun.) But he had so many buttons and I was so new, every little shift in weight or bump with my leg or hand sent him off into another direction. He was the sweetest and most patient horse. For a while I'd be afraid to move on him, but it was the best way to learn quiet aids.
2. For 6 years of my life right out of College I made beer for a living. I worked for Anhueser-Busch as a Production Supervisor and made beer. Part of the job was "tasting" every tank before I released it to be packaged. The dream job in theory, and truly it was a lot of fun. But after 6 years of working shift, even the free beer couldn't make me stay.
3. Back in 1996 & 1997 I won the Jr/Yr Region 5 Championship Award, 2 years in a row for Training and 1st Level. I'm not bragging, just sharing as it was the peak (and still is, sadly) of my riding career. Right or wrong, those wins solidified my lifelong passion for Dressage. It showed that I was actually good at something. And that I could be successful at it with an unknown trainer and a little QH, I didn't have to drain myself or my parents of money to succeed, even if on the smallest level.
4. I am almost 31 and my favorite item on the McDonald's menu is still Chicken McNuggets. I know they are gross and over processed, but with that sweet and sour sauce they are soooo good. Go ahead and judge, I don't care.
5. I am a Floridian by birth, but a Coloradan by heart. We visited Colorado when I was ~14 and have dreamed of living here ever since. And have finally gotten my dream... modified. While I live in the high plains, and it resembles Kansas more than Colorado, on a clear day I can see the mountains from the barn.
6. I hate cleaning, it is the most soul sucking activity I can think of. But I'm also a slight perfectionist so I am constantly struggling with the need for a clean house but the absolute dread of cleaning it. Plus I'm lazy, so I often throw clothes where ever and put of doing dishes, knowing its going to drive me crazy the next day. Its quite a paradox.
7. I learned Dressage on a Reining horse, and couldn't get him to walk straight for the first 4 lessons. He had some dressage training, but was primarily a reiner (and my trainer let me do some slides on him for fun.) But he had so many buttons and I was so new, every little shift in weight or bump with my leg or hand sent him off into another direction. He was the sweetest and most patient horse. For a while I'd be afraid to move on him, but it was the best way to learn quiet aids.
And now for the 15 Recently Discovered Blogs - I haven't been blogging or reading blogs for long, so they are all recently discovered for me. And I'm sure some of these people have already gotten this award, since it seems to be spreading quickly. But I don't care, if I like 'em I like 'em.
- Kelly and Dexter's Lessons (OK so this is my other blog, but I do read it and enjoy it.)
Now to just tell all these blogs how much I enjoy them....
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